about me
After 4 years of trying for baby #1, with 5 surgeries in 6 years, combination fertility problems (multiple fibroids, blocked tube, pelvic adhesions, luteal defect, poor morphology), plus one beloved baby boy lost halfway to term, and countless shattered hopes along the way, I recently embarked on my last best chance to finally bring home a real live baby through IVF and FET. It failed, unfortunately. Yet our journey to parenthood continues, now through the path of domestic open adoption.
This blog began as an online journal to explore my infertility and document our IVF after four years of lost hope. It has also provided an outlet to process my lingering grief over losing my only child at 21 weeks gestation due to pre-term premature membrane rupture (P-PROM) in February 2006.
The words, images and emotions captured here chronicle my unsuccessful efforts to conceive again with the help of IVF/ICSI and FET, and finally, our current journey through the domestic open adoption process. This space provides a place to muse about life as I see it from here, on the edge of whatever the future may hold.
More about me? I’m 38 39 and live in the San Francisco Bay Area with my wonderful husband, the Amazing M. We both work to try to make the world a healthier place. While I have a fantastic and rewarding job, my real dream is to become a stay-at-home-mom. Time is running out, and I’m still hoping it’s not too late…
All rights reserved. life from here: musings from the edge. 2007-2008
I saw your website after reading some threads on IVF connections, a place in which I am a member. I wanted to wish you good luck and hope you find your embryos implanted soon. You seem like a lovely person and a deep, insightful writer (I just left a comment on your letter to a friend post). I wanted to also add that I had pprom mid second trimester as well and went on to have a full term pregnancy. With hope, Michelle
To edit the above message: I meant to say above that it was a pprom 2nd trimester loss, like you had, not a success story in that instance, but was able to carry to term in a subsequent pregnancy.
Hi!
I run a website, http://www.babyblogorama.net, that lists ttc, expecting, and parenting bloggers to help us all find one another. I’ve added your site to the blogroll. If you need me to correct any information or if you would like for me to remove the link, please let me know. Also, if you could help me get the word out about http://www.babyblogorama.net, I would really appreciate it!
Best wishes,
Tina Roggenkamp
http://www.babyblogorama.net
http://babyblogorama.blogspot.com/
tina.roggenkamp@babyblogorama.net
It’s never too late! You guys are doing great. All of my thoughts and prayers are with you as you prepare for your homestudy.
Best,
Meghan